So, my husband and I decided we would each write a letter to our unborn child and place each letter in our son/daughters nursery when they are born. I wrote mine when I was around 7 weeks pregnant and my husband sent me his last night. I cried my eyes out when I read his letter. I am the luckiest woman on the planet to be having this wonderful blessing of a child and to also be blessed with a husband who loves me and our baby so very much. I know hes going to be a wonderful father.
Here is Matts letter to Kayden or Devin.
To my little seamonkey,
As I’m writing this, you’re growing stronger and stronger inside your mommy’s belly. I can’t tell you how blessed I feel to know that you’re on your way into our lives. You will be loved and cherished more than any baby I know.
Your mommy and I have been trying to make a baby for a long time, and we hadn’t had any success. We tried and tried and prayed and prayed, but nothing happened. Then, after we had given up hope and had been looking to adopt a child, your mommy was feeling funny and decided to check and see if she was pregnant. Well, we found out she was, and we were so happy.
After that, your mommy and you gave us a bit of a scare when she thought she was going to lose you. So, we took her to the doctor to find out what was wrong. Everything seemed fine, but some stuff that was needed to help you grow was at a low level. So, mommy was told to rest for a few days to see if the counts would double. Not only did they double, they nearly tripled. I knew you’d show everyone. You’re a little trooper.
Mommy was still scared for you though because she had lost a baby before. So, the day of our first ultrasound came and we were worried that you wouldn’t be doing well because of how mommy had been before. Well, you showed everyone again how special you were. Your heart rate was 155 and you were sitting and posing in mommy’s belly. It was like you were trying to say, “Look at me and how awesome I am”. You are an awesome baby, and you’re only going to get more awesome as the years go by.
So, if you ever think that we don’t care or love you. We do with all our hearts. You’re our little fighter. You’re our little blessing. You’re our proof that God’s Will be done. He gave you to us just when we needed you, and we couldn’t ask for anything more. You are our world. You’re everything that’s good in mommy and me all rolled up into one little package. We love you with everything we have.
Love Always,
Your Daddy
And here is my letter to baby :)
To my little Angel,
Before you were ever born, you were loved so so very much. You are a miracle your father
and I thought would never happen. Just when we had given up hope, a pregnancy test showed two littlepink lines, and there you were.
You were wished for, hoped for, prayed for, dreamed of, and waited for. Your father and I tried
for some time to create you, and even went through fertility testing to try and find out why you never showed up. But thats because, God saved you for us for just the right time.
While I am writing this, I dont know whether youre going to be a little boy or a little girl, but I do know you're going to be amazing. You're already so independent at only seven weeks old. You're already not afraid to let mommy know what you want and are a pretty demanding baby.
I have been very sick with you, but you are so worth every minute.
I already know youre going to have a lot of fight inside you... just like me your Mommy.
More than likely you will be a little spit-fire, and thats okay, it means your passionate.
Always use your passion in life for good, for motivation, not ever for anger or revenge.
I will tell you a little story. From day one, you werent the type of kid to just throw in the towel and give up. Three days after I found out I was pregnant with you, I was at the Emergency Room with complications. You had us very very scared. My hormone levels were low with you to the point they thought we might lose you. It was devestating to your daddy and myself. They told us they were going to watch us to see if the hormone levels increased. They needed the hormone levels to double, and well that wasnt enough for you. You showed them. It tripled. And for that I am already proud of you and your'e not even here yet. I know your'e going to do amazing things.
You are a wonderful blessing from God, a true gift.
I feel in a way I already know the kind of person youre going to be just from carrying you around in my tummy. I know that sounds silly, but I play music for you every night and Daddy and I talk to you every day. I just know youre going to be an amazing, inspring, smart little individual.
I cant wait to meet you and hold you in my arms. Your daddy and I are both so ecstatic that you
are on your way into our lives. You are our greatest creation. And you were made, very much from love. With that being said, I hope you know your daddy and I want the best for you out of life. I wish you love.. the kind of love your daddy and I have for one another and the kind of love that my parents had.
I wish you happiness.. the kind that comes from deep down, that no one can take away from you. I wish you confidence, and strength. Confidence in yourself, and the strength to do whats right when given the decision. The strength to get back up when life knocks you down, and it will,but I promise to always be there to help you back up and to comfort you when your'e sad.
I promise to support your dreams and your creativity and to love you unconditionally.
I know youre going to be wonderful, and I am counting down the days until I get to meet you
and see your beautiful tiny smile.
You are and always have been my dream.
Love always and forever,
Your Mommy.
Our wedding Day
Tuesday, September 27, 2011
Friday, September 23, 2011
Work after being on bedrest, My Second Mom, and My Mom
So Wednesday morning I woke up with incredible pain underneath my ribs in the center of my belly. Called into work it was supposed to be my first day back off of bedrest.. Well then Thursday, I was feeling tired, but okay. I go in and find out they told me on accident to be there for Thursday, that I was scheduled for Friday. I turn around and go home. So today, (friday) , I wake up feeling like crap, vomiting everywhere, and even pass out this morning and end up having to call out again. Im starting to wonder if I'm going to be right back on bedrest. Insomnia is starting to creep in. Nausea is back in swing, and this morning I passed out... REALLY???!!???. All i want to do is be able to go back to work and make some money to contribute to mine and Matt's growing family. Its very upsetting , and I'm starting to think either I'm going to have to resign, or either theyre going to get tired of it and let me go.
I wonder if part of it could be all the meds they have me on. I am on enough meds to supply a small grocery store between nausea, vitamin deficiencies, anxiety, sleep and allergy. :/.
But something has got to give so I can have at least part of my life back.. at least until 3rd trimester!!
I love my baby very much and will do what I have to do to take care of myself... if it means quitting my job, so be it. But I REALLLLLYYYY dont want to have to do that, but at the same time I cant expect them to just not fill someone in in my spot when I'm gone ALL THE TIME. You cant run a business that way.
I've never been the type to call out of work and I hate it. ESPECIALLY since I have a job that I like and good people to work for. Theyre even willing to adjust to make it more comfortable for me during pregnancy..they have me on restriction for while I'm at work as to what I can lift, pull etc.. going to give me extra breaks.. I feel so bad about all of this!!! :( Hopefully tomorrow will be better.
On the lighter side,
today is my mother-in laws birthday :). She has done so much for Matt and I and has been soooooo accepting of me into her family. She's like my second mother, and I am very grateful to have her in my life. My ex husbands mother was a freakin lunatic... so to be married to someone whos mother is an amazingly sweet lady, is a GREAT CHANGE!! It was so cute. She's so excited about the baby, and the other day she comes home and brings in a little bouncer for the baby. She then proceeds to tell me, there is also a stroller, a jumper, a swing, and a play gym in the garage. LOL. This baby is so spoiled ALREADY. Thanks Mrs. Sharon. You're awesome :).
Trinity, our husky, of course spots the bouncer right away and its like she KNOWS its for a baby. She cautiously puts a paw on each side of it and climbs onto her back two legs and sniffs all over the bouncer ever so easy. I think were going to have a little second mommy on our hands. :) She knows mommy is pregnant and has been so careful around me and anything she thinks is for the baby.
Also, my mom seems to have been in better spirits yesterday. She has been getting up to go back and forth to the bathroom using just the walker in the hospital, which is a BIG improvement. She said my sister ( Jessie) had printed off a facebook picture of the ultrasound of the baby, and she was just soooooo happy. I know one of the main things she derives her strength from is her strong will to be able to see the baby when it arrives. She sounded very optomistic yesterday until she told me now the doctors are bickering back and forth as to how they want to continue her treatment... meds for her bone infection vs.. the damage it will do to her liver. Please keep her in your prayers. Heck, keep all of us in your prayers.
I wonder if part of it could be all the meds they have me on. I am on enough meds to supply a small grocery store between nausea, vitamin deficiencies, anxiety, sleep and allergy. :/.
But something has got to give so I can have at least part of my life back.. at least until 3rd trimester!!
I love my baby very much and will do what I have to do to take care of myself... if it means quitting my job, so be it. But I REALLLLLYYYY dont want to have to do that, but at the same time I cant expect them to just not fill someone in in my spot when I'm gone ALL THE TIME. You cant run a business that way.
I've never been the type to call out of work and I hate it. ESPECIALLY since I have a job that I like and good people to work for. Theyre even willing to adjust to make it more comfortable for me during pregnancy..they have me on restriction for while I'm at work as to what I can lift, pull etc.. going to give me extra breaks.. I feel so bad about all of this!!! :( Hopefully tomorrow will be better.
On the lighter side,
today is my mother-in laws birthday :). She has done so much for Matt and I and has been soooooo accepting of me into her family. She's like my second mother, and I am very grateful to have her in my life. My ex husbands mother was a freakin lunatic... so to be married to someone whos mother is an amazingly sweet lady, is a GREAT CHANGE!! It was so cute. She's so excited about the baby, and the other day she comes home and brings in a little bouncer for the baby. She then proceeds to tell me, there is also a stroller, a jumper, a swing, and a play gym in the garage. LOL. This baby is so spoiled ALREADY. Thanks Mrs. Sharon. You're awesome :).
Trinity, our husky, of course spots the bouncer right away and its like she KNOWS its for a baby. She cautiously puts a paw on each side of it and climbs onto her back two legs and sniffs all over the bouncer ever so easy. I think were going to have a little second mommy on our hands. :) She knows mommy is pregnant and has been so careful around me and anything she thinks is for the baby.
Also, my mom seems to have been in better spirits yesterday. She has been getting up to go back and forth to the bathroom using just the walker in the hospital, which is a BIG improvement. She said my sister ( Jessie) had printed off a facebook picture of the ultrasound of the baby, and she was just soooooo happy. I know one of the main things she derives her strength from is her strong will to be able to see the baby when it arrives. She sounded very optomistic yesterday until she told me now the doctors are bickering back and forth as to how they want to continue her treatment... meds for her bone infection vs.. the damage it will do to her liver. Please keep her in your prayers. Heck, keep all of us in your prayers.
Thursday, September 22, 2011
A Little Of Everything
I'm Deonna Smith, proud wife to Matthew Smith, and proud MOMMY to either Kayden Grace Smith or Devin James Smith... hopefully we will know in just a few weeks whether we have a little prince or princess on the way :).
My husband and I met 6 years ago and were at different points in our lives..we split up and 5 years later finally got it right and got married :). Our anniversary is Oct 03, 2010. He is my sweetheart and I could'nt have prayed for a better husband and future father to our child.
I was told years ago that I would never have a successful pregnancy... God is in control.. Doctors.. not so much! After multiple miscarriages and heartbreaks, we know this is it! This is our miracle baby! I am currently 10 weeks pregnant and already look like I have a volleyball inside my tummy lol. Im sick and tired as a dog most of the time, but its so worth it! I hope the baby looks just like my handsome husband.
Ive started to feel little "flutters" too early for kicks, but i feel some movement , especially at night! This baby is a night owl already and thats pretty scary. Hope its not a vision of things yet to come!
We did an early gender test and its 80% sure its a girl.. We will see!!!! So for now I will refer to it as "she" because I dont like calling the baby "it."... my husband calls it "SEAMONKEY" lol.
She so far loves the Temptations and Journey. Seems that when I play that kind of music she gets very active. Shes also did a few flutters when Iv'e played the piano for her. You never really understand just how "alive" a ten week old fetus can be until you've been pregnant.
I will never forget our first ultrasound. We could already see little eyes and a little mouth.. And an amazingly strong heartbeat!!! It was 154 at the first ultrasound and 166 at the second one !! She is going to be a little fighter. And with all the weight Mommy is gaining so quickly I wouldnt be suprised if she is plenty healthy when she is born.
Is it crazy that I'm nesting already!?!?! I have so far to go... yet already baby shopping and having baby baby baby on the brain 24-7. Its amazing how much your life changes the minute you find out your'e expecting. I never thought I could love someone so much who wasnt even born yet.
Im making myself take it easy, making myself vent. Thats one reason I created this blog. I was considered high risk until a few weeks ago, and I'm still on some restrictions.. cant lift more than 15 lbs, cant pull on things.. have to take sitting breaks at work.. have to take oodles of nausea meds, vitamins, anxiety pills etc. Trying not to stress when youre under tons of stress is the hardest thing in the world.
My mother is sick back in North Carolina and I miss her desperately. I dont know anyone in Kentucky other than my husbands family and the people I work with. Outside of work, I have not made a single friend here not related to my husband :/. My husband got screwed over by the Marine Corps, and wer'e starting to believe he will never receive what he's owed. In the midst of all this, we're house hunting, and pregnant. AND trying to catch up financially from where we had to fill the gaps the Marine Corps left.
Luckily, we both found jobs shortly after we moved to Kentucky. Matt got a good job as an IT guy with a plant here.. I got a sales job. But 2 mos after I started my job I got put on bedrest. SURPRISE! YOURE PREGNANT!! lol. And of course Matt got slapped onto a 2PM to 2AM shift 6 days a week... while i work mostly days.. so sleep is limited and so is our time together.
The hardest thing about him working the crazy hours is that I feel like he's missing out on things with the baby... every time she moves.. he misses it. He doesnt get to talk to my belly or sing the baby lullabyes like he would like to. It breaks my heart :(. But he tries to make up for it whenever he can... he is a wonderful , hard working, man! I know he will be such an amazing father.
My husband and I met 6 years ago and were at different points in our lives..we split up and 5 years later finally got it right and got married :). Our anniversary is Oct 03, 2010. He is my sweetheart and I could'nt have prayed for a better husband and future father to our child.
I was told years ago that I would never have a successful pregnancy... God is in control.. Doctors.. not so much! After multiple miscarriages and heartbreaks, we know this is it! This is our miracle baby! I am currently 10 weeks pregnant and already look like I have a volleyball inside my tummy lol. Im sick and tired as a dog most of the time, but its so worth it! I hope the baby looks just like my handsome husband.
Ive started to feel little "flutters" too early for kicks, but i feel some movement , especially at night! This baby is a night owl already and thats pretty scary. Hope its not a vision of things yet to come!
We did an early gender test and its 80% sure its a girl.. We will see!!!! So for now I will refer to it as "she" because I dont like calling the baby "it."... my husband calls it "SEAMONKEY" lol.
She so far loves the Temptations and Journey. Seems that when I play that kind of music she gets very active. Shes also did a few flutters when Iv'e played the piano for her. You never really understand just how "alive" a ten week old fetus can be until you've been pregnant.
I will never forget our first ultrasound. We could already see little eyes and a little mouth.. And an amazingly strong heartbeat!!! It was 154 at the first ultrasound and 166 at the second one !! She is going to be a little fighter. And with all the weight Mommy is gaining so quickly I wouldnt be suprised if she is plenty healthy when she is born.
Is it crazy that I'm nesting already!?!?! I have so far to go... yet already baby shopping and having baby baby baby on the brain 24-7. Its amazing how much your life changes the minute you find out your'e expecting. I never thought I could love someone so much who wasnt even born yet.
Im making myself take it easy, making myself vent. Thats one reason I created this blog. I was considered high risk until a few weeks ago, and I'm still on some restrictions.. cant lift more than 15 lbs, cant pull on things.. have to take sitting breaks at work.. have to take oodles of nausea meds, vitamins, anxiety pills etc. Trying not to stress when youre under tons of stress is the hardest thing in the world.
My mother is sick back in North Carolina and I miss her desperately. I dont know anyone in Kentucky other than my husbands family and the people I work with. Outside of work, I have not made a single friend here not related to my husband :/. My husband got screwed over by the Marine Corps, and wer'e starting to believe he will never receive what he's owed. In the midst of all this, we're house hunting, and pregnant. AND trying to catch up financially from where we had to fill the gaps the Marine Corps left.
Luckily, we both found jobs shortly after we moved to Kentucky. Matt got a good job as an IT guy with a plant here.. I got a sales job. But 2 mos after I started my job I got put on bedrest. SURPRISE! YOURE PREGNANT!! lol. And of course Matt got slapped onto a 2PM to 2AM shift 6 days a week... while i work mostly days.. so sleep is limited and so is our time together.
The hardest thing about him working the crazy hours is that I feel like he's missing out on things with the baby... every time she moves.. he misses it. He doesnt get to talk to my belly or sing the baby lullabyes like he would like to. It breaks my heart :(. But he tries to make up for it whenever he can... he is a wonderful , hard working, man! I know he will be such an amazing father.
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