So Wednesday morning I woke up with incredible pain underneath my ribs in the center of my belly. Called into work it was supposed to be my first day back off of bedrest.. Well then Thursday, I was feeling tired, but okay. I go in and find out they told me on accident to be there for Thursday, that I was scheduled for Friday. I turn around and go home. So today, (friday) , I wake up feeling like crap, vomiting everywhere, and even pass out this morning and end up having to call out again. Im starting to wonder if I'm going to be right back on bedrest. Insomnia is starting to creep in. Nausea is back in swing, and this morning I passed out... REALLY???!!???. All i want to do is be able to go back to work and make some money to contribute to mine and Matt's growing family. Its very upsetting , and I'm starting to think either I'm going to have to resign, or either theyre going to get tired of it and let me go.
I wonder if part of it could be all the meds they have me on. I am on enough meds to supply a small grocery store between nausea, vitamin deficiencies, anxiety, sleep and allergy. :/.
But something has got to give so I can have at least part of my life back.. at least until 3rd trimester!!
I love my baby very much and will do what I have to do to take care of myself... if it means quitting my job, so be it. But I REALLLLLYYYY dont want to have to do that, but at the same time I cant expect them to just not fill someone in in my spot when I'm gone ALL THE TIME. You cant run a business that way.
I've never been the type to call out of work and I hate it. ESPECIALLY since I have a job that I like and good people to work for. Theyre even willing to adjust to make it more comfortable for me during pregnancy..they have me on restriction for while I'm at work as to what I can lift, pull etc.. going to give me extra breaks.. I feel so bad about all of this!!! :( Hopefully tomorrow will be better.
On the lighter side,
today is my mother-in laws birthday :). She has done so much for Matt and I and has been soooooo accepting of me into her family. She's like my second mother, and I am very grateful to have her in my life. My ex husbands mother was a freakin lunatic... so to be married to someone whos mother is an amazingly sweet lady, is a GREAT CHANGE!! It was so cute. She's so excited about the baby, and the other day she comes home and brings in a little bouncer for the baby. She then proceeds to tell me, there is also a stroller, a jumper, a swing, and a play gym in the garage. LOL. This baby is so spoiled ALREADY. Thanks Mrs. Sharon. You're awesome :).
Trinity, our husky, of course spots the bouncer right away and its like she KNOWS its for a baby. She cautiously puts a paw on each side of it and climbs onto her back two legs and sniffs all over the bouncer ever so easy. I think were going to have a little second mommy on our hands. :) She knows mommy is pregnant and has been so careful around me and anything she thinks is for the baby.
Also, my mom seems to have been in better spirits yesterday. She has been getting up to go back and forth to the bathroom using just the walker in the hospital, which is a BIG improvement. She said my sister ( Jessie) had printed off a facebook picture of the ultrasound of the baby, and she was just soooooo happy. I know one of the main things she derives her strength from is her strong will to be able to see the baby when it arrives. She sounded very optomistic yesterday until she told me now the doctors are bickering back and forth as to how they want to continue her treatment... meds for her bone infection vs.. the damage it will do to her liver. Please keep her in your prayers. Heck, keep all of us in your prayers.
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